When I Came Out...

I waited until I was absolutely certain that I was a lesbian before I chose to come out. I was hardly having doubts, but I guess that was the excuse I used whenever I chickened out. However, when I found that I couldn’t watch episodes of Castle without falling in love with Beckett every single time her face showed up, I decided maybe it was time.

My family is a pretty close-knit bunch, and I had numerous gay people in my extended family, so I wasn’t worried about not being accepted; however, I couldn’t shake the nerves that took over me and caused the words to catch in my mouth. I just didn’t want anything to change.

A year and a half ago, I called up my older sister, put her on speaker phone and called a family meeting. I was struggling to blurt it out, and I ended up bursting into nervous giggles a few times, but in true Lauren fashion, my sister hurried me up and I said it. I’m gay.

There was silence for a few seconds. Then,
My brother: Well this is a new kind of family meeting…
My sister: I knew it! Damn it, I knew we should have placed bets.
My Dad: Well look at that, your Mum was right.
My Mum: I don’t know why you guys doubt me.

We talked about it for a bit; my parents explained that they always suspected I would be, given that I was more of a cowboys and Indians, Power Rangers and Star Wars kind of kid, never a Princess or a Barbie girl.
My sister said I was smart, and that she’d actually be disappointed if I dated men (apparently they’re all infuriating - I take it this comment came after a round of bickering with the boyfriend). And my brother didn’t mind a bit, he just wanted to turn Harry Potter back on.

As far as I’m concerned, I had a pretty decent coming out :).

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