When I Came Out...

So uh I was about 12 when I came out to my mom, she was the first one. I knew she was okay with gay people, my sisters ex-boyfriend is gay and her best friend is bi, but I didn’t know how she’d feel about having a gay daughter. It was really hard for me to accept my sexuality though, because I didn’t want to be more different than I already was. I would lay in bed at night crying my eyes out, praying to go to make me heterosexual, but of course that never worked. So finally, after one of those nights of crying myself almost to sleep, I made my decision and got up out of bed and stood in the hallway. I must’ve stood there for 5 minutes before my mom told me to come out to the living room.

I sat down and she asked me what was wrong. I felt the lump in my throat, knowing this was the time I was going to tell her, and started bawling. I almost passed out (which to this day was just stupid) from crying so much and my mom kept telling me to calm down and tell her what was wrong. I finally squeaked out ‘mom…I’m gay’ and waited for her reaction. She smiled at me and made me sit in her lap. She helped me calm down and said ‘I don’t care if your gay or straight. I don’t even care if you’re a purple dinosaur with orange spots. I just want you to be you’.

At that I began crying, again. So my mom was pretty easy, totally accepting and even now asks me who I like, like she would with a heterosexual daughter. She eventually told her boyfriend and my sister but left the rest up to me. I told my friend Eliza next, it was over the phone since we live in different states. We got on the subject on how gays can marry in NY and she was like ‘yeah that’s really cool’ and I told her, ‘yeah. Hey did you know I’m gay?’. She told me she didn’t care because her sister was a lesbian and was living with her girlfriend at the moment. Then I told my dad, I thought he’d scream at me and like disown me so I told him over the phone.

I texted him asking if he’d mind having a gay daughter and he said he wouldn’t and I told him. He called me to ask if I had a girlfriend and I laughed and responded no. we talked for a few minutes and at the end I was so happy that I called my mom at work to tell her. Then I told a few more friends and they’re okay with it, most of them have told my they’re gay themselves or that they know someone who’s gay and it doesn’t bother them. So yeah my coming out story was pretty easy, thought I’m not out to everyone at my school yet.

P.S I forgot, my brother doesn’t know yet because he has autism and my mom told me no to tell him so that she can explain it to him cause’ he really adapts to the minds of people around him, which in his case would be people who are close-minded to everything different. I’ll let you know again if anything changes.

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